it's always been a secret (i mean REALLY secret) wish of mine, i've had serious doubts in the past but in my heart of hearts all i want is my own little family, a mom and a dad who love each other and a baby, not a mom and a dad who i have not one memory of them together, who hate each other and me growing up feeling like i wasn't ever really accepted by any of them or anyone else.

not so secret-- ive always known you were a softie. oh yeah.

anyway, congrats on seeing the world as a place worth bringing new life to. if you were depressed, you wouldn't think so.

yeah yeah, satan's a pussy, get all your laughs out now

for the record i still think the world sucks

ha ha ha i don't think you're "a pussy", i've just always known that you're not the tough-ass bitch you sometimes pretend to be-- you actually have what people refer to as "feelings". which is actually great.

/ducks wooden clog

there's nothing about wanting to have children that makes you a pussy.

That is why I like you we have many sinilarities (i meant similarities but the typo looks better) I can see the motherlyness in you that ia awesome. People always say it, but my kids truly are the joy in my life.

yes turquoise and silver very nice. You have to show us yr wedding gear when you get it. I wore some crazy glitter pink 8" heels (ryan's 6'-5) they were awesome. Of course by the end I was running around in my tights fucked up heels really hurt.

Oh yes. In my view since you mentioned you guys have been kind of on and off for years I think yr meant to be together. A couple that can have some massive fights can have massive love and strength cause that means you are honest with each other. First ingrediant to a lasting marriage. Kids are great if you are ready. I will not sugar coat it. It is A LOT of WORK. and they will drive you insane, but you get used to it and they do get easier as they grow. The best part is how much happiness they bring into the world. They are so innocent and needing. They have not been scorned by the world yet and love you more than anyone on earth ever could. When I feel selfish or depressed I look at them laughing and playing and thier excitement over the little things we don't notice it helps me to get up and keep going if only for them.

They teach you patience big time. I was 24 when I had my 1st. I was young, but ready. I personally wanted to have my kids before 30. It is much easier on your body and your baby has less risk of health issues. Plus the recovery of your body is much better. I have some stretch marks and a c-section scar, but I weigh less than I did when I was 17 and don't look to bad for 32.

I am done at 2 kids though. I like my indepandace to an extent and am lucky enough to have my ryan at home with the young ones right now. I don't think it would be fair to my 2 babies for me to have more I want to give them as much love as possible.


Sorry for the tangent moms like to talk about this shit.;)

That is what all of us grls want. LOVE. Nothing wrong with that at all.

Srsly complain more dammit. There's only one on this page WTF guys.




Anyway! I'm stuck in this fuckng truck. This damn battery is catching fir when I try to turn it on. Fuckkkrnrifntogogjrn now I have to wait for a fucking mechanic. WTF! I wasn't even suppose to take this damn truck fck!

OK for fucks sake!!!!I just gotSLAMMMMMED with government work goodbye for a few days!

Thats what I'm talkin aboot. Fuck!

in a world where Sonic Youth can be on Gossip Girl, where Satan can get engaged, where a portable hard drive can have two terabytes of memory, why can't i get some fucking avocado on my goddamn salad???????

out of season? global warming? plagues? they got rotten? sunken cargo ships? the california raisins are waging war against the avocados? they've been abducted by UFOs? i could think of more explanations...

they have the avocado there! but they "do not put it on salads"

fucking asshoels!

ask the shitbags for "a side of avocado" and add it yourself.

tip accordingly.

I am complaining NOW because I could have used yr sage advice EARLIER you bastard!

eh! there's always tomorrow.

the "Hopeful" thread is buried somewhere in the SYG Forum nether-regions, go print your optimism there! ha!

ha ha-- i didn't know you were planning to fast-- it's a good time of the year for that, with the hot weater

pull a jack nicholson chicken salad sandwich move next time